International pop star Ellie Goulding has spoken about her issues with her anxiety and the way she controls it.
Ellie has been speaking Well + Good about the way she uses fitness to overcome her anxiety and her panic attacks, saying ‘the scariest part was it could be triggered by anything’.
She said that sometimes it was so bad, she was unable to leave the house.
“My new life as a pop star certainly wasn’t as glamorous as all my friends from home thought,” she said. “Secretly, I was really struggling physically and emotionally.
“I think part of what sparked my panic attacks was not feeling confident enough to believe in myself – I was scared I wasn’t as good of a singer as everyone thought I was. And as the stakes grew, I was afraid of letting everyone, including myself, down.”
Ellie has said that even with the help of the therapy that she gets, she can still struggle with the demons inside her head: “Last year, I was asked to perform at the Grammys – a massive honour but, as you can imagine, pretty nerve-wracking. In the moments before I walked on that stage, I gave myself a good talking-to. I was annoyed for being paralysed with nerves every time I was about to perform on television. I told myself that this was exactly where I was supposed to be and if other people believed in me, I had to start believing in myself.”
Ellie has also went on to say that she finds that fitness and being really helps her “I love that extra kick of adrenaline. Keeping fit doesn’t mean spending hours at a gym; the key is to find a workout you really love. The more I started doing (boxing and kickboxing) classes and also working out with my trainer, Faisal Abdalla, the better I felt about myself.
“It wasn’t about any change in my outward appearance; it was about seeing and feeling myself get better and stronger. It carried over into other areas of my life, and now I truly feel that exercise – however you like to work out – is good for the soul.”
Ellie also added: “It took time, but I’ve accepted that everyone feels nervous before they perform – it’s not just me. And now that I believe in myself more, that confidence comes through, whether I’m working out, singing onstage, or just hanging out by myself at home.”
Ellie Golding is the latest in a long line of artists in the last few months to come out and talk about anxiety issues in bid to get more people talking about it and to raise awareness.